kiraland

a year ago today i was flying on my own around the world into the unknown. i was scared to death. i barely slept the night before. i could barely utter a word on the drive to the airport. my parents drove me and we took some goodbye photos which are unbelievably ugly and tear filled. i almost left my computer in security cause i was so flustered. i glanced up for one last goodbye look at my parents and couldn’t believe what i was doing. i sat at my gate and listened to usher. san francisco provided another break down into tears and comforting words from my mother. and then there it was the flight to tokyo. there was no turning back and luckily i slept most of the unbearable 14 hours squished in the middle of a row of five. tokyo almost saw me break into a complete meltdown but luckily God provided a friend. one of my best friends and i started that friendship right there in that airport which was such a blessing in so many ways. we took off and landed in bangkok at 12 in the morning and there began the best year of my entire life.

i was scared to death. i didn’t want to go but knew i had to. there was no other option if i was to obey God. and you know what God is faithful and fully provides. i spent a year living without any worries or fears. i was so confidently wrapped in the father’s love and power.

this year i’m not traveling to the unknown but as i sit here and write this i realize that i am needing to place that same amount of trust in the Lord right now. that i need to relax and rest in the peace of who he is and all that he promises. i don’t know what this year will hold but i have to rest in the fact that i am in the palm of his hand and that is all that matters.